Hello. I’m still in shock and upset. Not really sure where to post this. But I would like to hear some stories to help me through this. On May 16th, my period was late. Which was very strange because I was on the pill and took it regularly. I took a home pregnancy test and it came back positive! My boyfriend and I were shocked, but knew we could handle one more added to our 4 others. I immediately stopped taking my BC, got prenatals, stopped drinking energy drinks, and made an OB appointment. June 5th, we had an ultrasound. We thought I would be around 7 weeks based on my last period. But the transvaginal ultrasound showed a baby who wasn’t that far along and was too small for a heartbeat to be seen. We got the ultrasound picture and left, excited about the future. I started spotting afterwards, it was old blood. So I wasn’t alarmed. The next day around 6 pm, I started bleeding heavier and it was bright red. We immediately went to the ER. They took my blood and did a urinalysis. Everything came back fine, but my HCG level was low for how far along I should have been. They sent me home and told me to call my OB and get my blood drawn again. The next day, June 7th, I was cramping very bad and bleeding a lot heavier. I laid down for a nap. When I woke up and went to the bathroom, I passed a big clot that had grey material in it. I instantly knew I passed the baby. It was the size of my palm and I could feel it pass. I couldn’t see the baby, thankfully, but I just knew. Today, we had an ultrasound and I did have a complete miscarriage. We’re trying to deal with this as best as we can, but I can’t stop thinking about the feeling of my body just pushing my baby out as if it were nothing. I felt my baby come out of me and I could do nothing to save him or her. I can’t stop thinking about that. That is what truly is upsetting me most. I know with time, I will be able to accept it and be at peace with it. But I’m not sure what to do in the meantime to help myself and my significant other through this. If anyone has any advice or has gone through similar, please tell me how you were able to deal with it properly. I’m lost and need help. Also, we decided to name the baby Grace, which means God’s favor or God’s blessing. And baby Grace, you were a big blessing in the short time I carried you in my womb. We will always love you and miss you.